Ok, ignore the previous entry peeps. I have no courage to kill myself. I looked down from my window and my heart was like immediately in my mouth. I stood there for a good 20 mins and scenes of my funeral, how heartbroken my mum is, and my old granny.. all flooded my mind. I guess it was just a state of depression that I thought of suicide. Bla bla...

I guess I'm better now. I found a new job. Starting tml, car sales! hehe.. something I wanted when I was 19. Too bad I failed my test then and I couldn't give it a try. But nonetheless, I joined Jetstar! Ok, starting work tml. April fool day~ What a day to start right.. But I seriously hope this will be a good one. At least they are definately more honest and answered all my questions directly during the interview.

The previous sales and marketing one was good. If only they were more honest.. Hmm.. It isn't at all nice to find out bits and pieces of hidden infos when you start working right! No good, no good!

Ok, I'm all excited about my new job. But stress la I got no smart casual clothes. Manager says I don't have to be very formal, but canot be too casual. But the thing is, I only have very formal, or very casual! My usual t-shirt + shorts can? Wahahhaa... Tml's orientation day, and from Thurs onwards will be training... back to class! I guess manager is prepared too, cos he says 'for you I guess the toughest challenge is product knowledge!' Ya la!! I know nothing about cars what! Lol.. And 1 more thing, I can't drive manual.. moreover its Subaru. Oh, did I mention I'll be at Subaru department?

I guess it's good for me to divert all my attention to work. I just wanna focus and put all my attention on work. Cos by doing this I will have no time to think of other stuffs. I wanna be happy! My beloved infant says she believes I can be a strong girl as well. I hope I can too! =) Taking a step carefully each day now, I believe I will be happier.

I'm in the midst of preparing dinner. All ingredients prepared, just have to wait for the 'right time' to start cooking. Haha.. I'll be frying bee hoon for the very first time today! Hope its edible! Then I have pan-fried salmon, mushroom wrapped with bacon and cherry tomatoes wrapped with bacon as well. Can open a Tori-Q stall liao.. and I shall name it Tori-J! Wahahah

Alright, back to the kitchen. Gotta sleep early tonight. The start of my no-life life begins tomorrow! Haha.. Sleep, work, eat, work, home, sleep!