Its over. Its time for me to wake up and leave the beautiful dream. It has never been real, I know that.

Maybe it was just what I think.

Maybe it was just what I felt.

Maybe it was because of what I did.

Maybe it was because of what I said.

Maybe I was wrong.

There are too many maybes going on my mind. Whatever it is, its too late. Its time for me to face the reality. I always thought that I've already gave up long ago, and I'm prepared for that. But the pain was there when the truth finally slaps me.

But I dare say that it is because of what you've said andwhat you've done that gave me that idea.

I thank you that you once brought me to the beautiful dreamland. I thank you for the short happy times we spent together. I thank you for the laughter we once shared. I thank you for being selfish. I thank you for hurting me.

I would very much loved to show you that I can live my life better than you. I will try and I must prove it to you.

Its over.

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Work hasn't been good either. It left a scar on me and I know the scar will follow me for life. Fear comes more than anger at that moment, followed by lost and embarrassment. I've done what I could, all I can do now is to wait for justice to be done. How I wish I could slam your head with the water flask I was holding at that time, if only I wasn't in uniform.

Its not easy to face a double blow that happened on the same day, but I believe I can do it.