Putting on a mask is never easy, and I hate it. It sucks when you can't show your real emotions out there and all you have to do is to smile and laugh as if theres nothing wrong when you are feeling so miserable inside. I guess I'm just putting what I've learnt recently in good use.

What the hell.

I stopped myself from doing what I planned to do cos I know once I do it this time, its like hurting myself once again. Since I've made up my mind, theres no turning back now. Its no longer up to me anymore. Forget about it, stick to my decision and stop hurting myself.

Oh ya, I have this new year resolution that came a little too late (but its better late than never), and that is to stop being vulgar. I know it will be difficult for me afterall I've too used to that special language. What I'll do is to start to reduce it, and slowing stop it totally. (Ok, go ahead and laugh all you want la!)

I guess the most difficult part about this resolution is that the group of people I'm hanging out with. Charles Family for instance. Da ge is the most vulgar among all!! (I can say this here cos he wont read my blog!) Er ge is vulgar occasionally, or when he is real mad la. San Jie is also very vulgar!!! Lol.. Si Jie is the 'purest' cos she doesn't have any vulgar word in her dictionary! Lol..

Yup, I'm going to try to cut down on the special language! =) Cos girl girl cannot be vulgar.... WAHAHAHAHAA

Mum's going for her sugery today. Please pray for speedy recovery for my mum k! I'm going to bed now as I've got to wake up 4 hours later.

Oh ya.. Next entry will be about my prawning experience! Its a new experience and I've fallen in love with it! Its so fun!!!!!!!!! I wanna go again!

Alrightys.. I'm off to bed now. Gonna dream of Aska again! Woo hoo... and now you know who is my new dream lover! *blush* Haha